Im exhausted (TW SELF H@RM AND IMPLIED SU!CIDE)

I'm exhausted. 

I'm sick of school, 

I'm sick of home, 

I'm sick of my family, 

My friends, foes, and hoes.

I wish they shared, I wish they cared

But no one ever does.

I want to forever lay, although I'm totally okay..

I fight to stay alive, although I'm totally alright..

I want to die, but “I'm fine, I have everything” I don't know why.

I don't matter one bit, I wish I could just quit, get out of this shithole, that's it.

As I drag the blade across my skin, I look down and grin. 

Silver turns to red, I can't break free of my head, I wish I was dead,

 the thoughts turn loud, it feels like I'm lost in a crowd, 

it feels like a stampede, they say that I deserve to bleed. 

I'm exhausted, my feelings are vaulted, I wish I could disappear, 

forgotten by everyone who's near, because nobody needs me, 

nobody understands, and as I close my eyes and drift to a forever sleep,

 I think with glee, “I'm finally free“