Release...

I had the greatest therapist or so it seemed to me
Until the day I saw a tear that wouldn't go away

The time it took for me to trust before I told my secrets
And now i have this angst for her learning to release it

It seems so clear to me now I cannot tell her all the rest
Try to hide the way it hurts inside i know she does her best

To manage counter-transference the way that she was trained
Although she blew her cover then the trust would still remain

Afterall her heart had laid the ground work to help us build a trust
We're only human after all sometimes life just gets too much

The only hurdle that I had with her the other ones were mine
We'd grow beyond a weaker moment in just a bit of time

The deepest work I ever did she was my trusted witness
Of all the therapist I knew she would be the greatest

Until one day there came a time for her to take a break
A heart that could not bear the strain the way that she was trained

I thought for just a day about it I gave myself that time
To ask myself key questions  to try to ease my mind

So if this is the second therapist to suffer from a fall
Was it something that I shared with her how could I make that call

Isn't that what I learned from her to keep the focus on myself
To honor what I need from me dont put it on a shelf

Still sometimes it  hurts alot when I think of her to long
The greatest therapist I ever had accepting that she's gone

I can let the tears fall right now dont rush to wipe away
Allow myself to feel those feelings the way she taught that day