After all

Am i crazy after all 

will he ever understand.

The journey that I took

leading back to him.

 

Words cannot convey 

all matters of the heart.

If I could have only seen 

the truth before my eyes.

 

He was surely capable 

of standing by my side.

A gift I could not fathom 

a love I'd never known.

 

Accept me as I am 

I'll do the same with you. 

So very disappointed 

in my frailty...

 

Standing next to him 

would not allow myself to see.

Spinning through my mind 

thoughts of what they'd say.

 

She can't be good for him 

kept swirling in my head.

If only I could have voiced it...

we could have talked it through. 

 

Would not have left him unknowing 

what could have possibly went wrong. 

I can see it clearly now 

no longer want to be alone.

 

If I can't be with him 

I could accept his clone. 

I don't even think I'm joking 

I might be serious. 

 

It's OK to laugh 

sometimes its what we need 

To get us through the angst 

now back to him and me 

 

What I've needed all along 

To be cared for and to love 

With a man that feels just right 

when we are alone.  

 

A safer place to be 

I never knew before 

A better place for me 

I'll never know again.

 

Is this just a dream 

or is it really real 

Allowing them to surface 

these feelings are surreal.  

 

To late to see him now 

is my only fear 

A possibile reunion 

is this even real.

 

There is no way to know 

if I never try

A worse regret would be 

if I never chose.

 

Is that the way they say

it's not the chance you took 

The worst regret would be 

the one you never would.