Too sad to cry, how to relieve?

I am so sad

I want to cry it all out 

But I've cried too much recently 

And there are no tears left

Only a couple of miserable tears

I wonder if I stab myself

I will cry from the sharping pain 

Or will I be immune to it 

Due to my numerous pain vaccines 

I drew red lines on my wrists 

And it tingles 

Like it is telling me to pick up that scissors 

To do it 

To cut myself 

It will feel better 

I will be happier 

I've tried seeking help from all around me

But I realised everyone was going through their own pain

How can I be so selfish to add to their burden?

I will be a good little girl, I promise. 

I will stay silent. I am strong. I can be independent.

I will get through this myself

And if I don't, you know you can find me lying in the pool of my own blood