Broke my heart again

I find it hard to fall asleep at night 
Maybe because I realized sleep can't offer the peace I so badly long for
My unrealistic expectations blur my sight 
I'm unable to see clearly what's before me,
Because deep down I wish there was more 
More to us just the way I want it to be
I wish I could erase you from my mind
But how can I, if you've engraved your self in every part of my soul 
I wish I didn't think about you all the time
Because when I do my mind goes blind
And I'm unable to see what's really there 
The fact that you'll never be mine
Why does loving you have to feel like a crime 
Why does it hurt so bad when you ignore me?
Why did I let you get under my skin
Why are you so mean?