Stuck on the Horizon

Let’s go back

Back to when it wasn’t so intense

When every word wasn’t second-guessed

When love wasn’t so grotesque

Let’s go back

To when I couldn’t believe my luck

That I finally found someone worth it

When our hearts just fit

Let’s skip this agonizing part

Let’s skip the slow-building tension

The fights every damn night

The feeling of falling apart

Let’s skip this part

Or rewind to the beginning

But instead we’re stuck

Stuck in this cycle of destruction

This vicious circle of no hope or redemption

The lack of forgiveness and crushing pressure

Where depression waits in leisure

Stuck -

Stuck like a bee in honey

A deer in a stream

A wasp in my skin

An arrow in my heart

You say I’m selfish  

I say I’m myself

You call me a wicked

Well, maybe it can’t be fixed

You say I’m too strong

Too independent

Too inflexible

Too much

What if you’re too little?

You say the end is impossibly far

I see it on the horizon, impossibly close

You say we’re stronger together

I say we’re stuck on the horizon