I wonder if......?
Those were the glorious words
That stopped me sliding ever downward
To that black hole that was pulling
Me to the end of this existence.
Four in a million....
Were the odds of developing
This debilitating condition that was
So difficult to diagnose
I wonder if......?
The registrar, newly qualified?
In discussions with her mentor
About my lack of sleep, never-ending
Headaches and absolute fatigue said:
“I wonder if.....?
So then I was tested.
The blood so freely taken by anyone
Who seemed to want it.
Almost dragged from the street
As I passed any Doctors’ surgery.
Then that day when the diagnosis
Was confirmed, the Doctor said
“Yes,This is what you have!”
“We will now need to operate,
Deep within your head!”
The surgeon, dressed in white,
All powerful to his pupils,
Full of confidence that relayed to me
The complete certainty,
That all would be right!
The surgeon came onto the ward
He told me that the operation may result
In my awaking with a headache!
I smiled as I told him that,
I was used to them by now!
Where does the time go?
I was talking to a Doctor as he
Anaesthetised me when, he changed,
Into a nurse asking me,
“Was I alright?”
.
Having lost four hours of my life.
Not knowing where the time went
Puzzles me.
Asleep you are aware of time passing
But not when drugged. Strange!
Where was the headache I was promised.
The old “friend?” gone at last!
Free from pain after so many years,
Was all going to be fine now, after,
Thirteen years of suffering!
God was back in my mind!
My faith lost; the last thing to go
As I fell into the pit of despair, that was
So hard for loved ones to cope with.
But God came back!
The ward, full of humour became
My home for a week, I laughed,
And I cried, although not of despair.
The staff also joking, laughing with me.
But the air professionalism, paramount!
I listened to music on the miniature player
That held much of the music that was important to me
So my thanks go to God and all of the staff,
To Johan Sebastian, Wolfgang Amadeus and
Ol’ Satchelmouth himself!
Since leaving the hospital totally cured,
A second chance at life changed me!
I see things in a positive way, always looking for
The good, in both people and situations, despite
The pessimism of most!
So my thanks to the registrar who,
When discussing my case with her
Professorial mentor, that time back when she,
Uttered those words of such value to me
I wonder if…...?
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Goldfinch60 (Pseudonym) (
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- Comment from author about the poem: This is a poem I wrote many years ago. Many people do not understand my optimism all the time, it comes from being cured from Acromegaly, a problem that only four in a million suffer from. The surgeon told me that if I did not have the operation I would die so I was given a second chance at life and ALL is now so good.
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A sensitive write Gold.
Thanks Orchi.
What a wonderful narrative dear Andy. Your choice of song mirrors so well your optimism in life. And there can be no doubt that an experience, such as yours, is truly life changing. Thank you so much for sharing this.
Thank you for your kind words Bella, it certainly was life changing.
Andy
I always knew you were one in a million sir .................... 🙂
Most kind Neville, thank you.
Andy
"I wonder if" such a great entry to this piece. It paints a vivid picture of hope and I thank you for sharing.
Thank you soren, my hope is always there and I know that hope will always show a fine road ahead.
Andy
Thankful you are still here and decided to pin this, Andy.
Thank you Dave, I am not going yet I still have too many people to upset. LOL
Andy
Not again! Do I have to repeat myself? You wouldn't know how to upset someone if you tried....🙂
However If you would like to add this skill to your social repertoire I do provide workshops at a very modest fee.....
Wow just wow. Speaks volumes Andy. Live long and prosper. 🖖
Much appreciated 'Mr Spock'.
Andy
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