GIVEN UP

I feel like my body is giving up ,

I can feel the tears coming out of my heart ,

The broken heart is drowning me .

My anxiety is unwavering,

I feel numb,

I feel like somewhere I am unsettled .

Depression is killing me ,

The tears , sadness in my eyes is not seen by anyone else’s eyes .

The pretending is hard ,

Showing off smile with a broken heart  with sadness is hard .

I wanted to be valued ,

I wanted to feel worthy ,

I wanted to feel the love i deserve .

Why does this keep happening to me ?

Why me ?

Was I the bad person all along ?

My chest is filled up with a million questions.

I can’t deny ,

I can’t pretend anymore ,

I can’t feel my body live again,

I feel like my body has given up .

• hiya