Saturday

I was at a competition.

Most difficult one yet-

and the news came through

two dead

one in critical condition

now I'm watching a bug crawl on the walls

and i feel its eyes on us

my speech was- is about a woman whos mom died

and now i know the pain

not word for word

but close enough to feel my chest ripped open

it was all seniors

Aiden

Kayden

no it was juniors

Cadence

Aiden

the words kept changing

one too many times to process

was it him

or was it him

friend or friend

which do you hope for

don't falter 

don't let your team down

it's sad but you have a competition

and despite it all

5th

a finalist

when you come home put on your dress

there's a dance

nevermind it's cancelled

invite your friends over

why?

something fun

as looney tunes plays over and over

as blue planet depicts the whales

and your lonely bones ache

and the pain fades

because you'll never see them again

and there's nothing you can do.