ME

I’m not who you thought I’d be

Getting here has been exhausting

Looking back I’m starting to feel free…

I’m not who you wished me to be

Constantly fighting off bad memories

The ones only few close to me got to see…

I’m not who you thought I’d be

Living in plain sight yet never to be seen

Wishing I had the powers to foresee …

I’m not who you wished me to be

Music playing while smelling the rain in the breeze

Emptiness of my heart makes it hard to breathe…

I’m not who you thought I’d be

Hunting for truths that I may never be told

Afraid of losing the ones I’ve grown to know…

I’m not who you wished me to be

Everything’s working against me

Maybe it’s not as simple as it seems…

I’m not who you thought I’d be

This young heart sings to it’s own beat

An old soul that’s floating downstream…

I’m not who you wished me to be

Striving to be everything for everybody

Only to feel like I’m a nobody…

I’m not who you thought I’d be

Trying to finish something I’ll probably never complete

Disappointing each of you endlessly…

I’m not who you wished me to be

Being strong isn’t all it’s cracked up to be

These eyes have seen so many things…

I’m not who you thought I’d be

As quick as I fix things they dissolve in front of me

Feeling like I’m not as good as I think…

I’m not who you wished me to be

My life has been nothing like I dreamed

It’s been everything but nothing like it seems…

I’m not who you thought I’d be

Constantly changing so I don’t repeat

This vicious cycle of me being me…