Loving you when it is not real

My heart hurts when I think back to our early times 

To the point where I dared to express my love in broad daylight

What hurts the most is the love I still have for you but can't express 

The pain I feel is undescribable and gives me a lot of stress

My mind goes back to the night when you told me you cared for me 

but that a future together was something you didn't see

I still don't understand how the future is all that matters to you 

I only act upon the love I feel in my heart, which isn't untrue

So here I am, still loving you and our memories

Which I will always keep as treasuries

And despite wanting to keep continuing the show,

I know you don't want to continue and that I need to let go

Even though it is very hard to feel

I know loving you at this moment won't ever be real