anger

I told you I was angry.

You told me that scars were a 

"turn off"

I'm so sorry

I'm so sorry that I survived myself

I understand how disgusting it is

how repulsive it is to see

ha

I wonder what you would say

if I left those same marks on you

would you see your reflection and hate it?

would you cover your arms with pen to hide scars?

I know it's repulsive but if we are being honest

so are you

you shamed me for my health

you shamed me for my life

you shamed me for my ability to keep going

so you tell me

how you are so much better

addiction is not a 

"turn off"

So yes, I am angry with you

for making me feel ashamed of scars I let heal

"don't open any more"

you have no control over me

not with that attitude

calm down and stop crying

the world isn't yours anymore

I'm taking it back

and I look beautiful

I look fierce

I look like hell and I blame you

but don't worry

soon you will too