Royalty

I see her

The girl I’m supposed and want 

To be

She’s within my grasp

Just a few more steps

But what if im not ready

To leave this behind

My pain

My crutch

My shadow?

But i cant be pain

forever 

At some point i have to be something more

Because i am

Something more

It just took me a while

Is still taking me time

To realize this

Its taken mistreatment

Far too many times

For me to realize 

I dont deserve this

I know i deserve more

Because that what i am

More

More than you can comprehend

More than you can apparently handle

Im done waiting 

For you to decide

This is my story

Im taking the pen

Im writing it how i want it

Dont be angry

Hurt

Contentious

You had a chance

You wasted it

Now im going to be 

What ive always been

Will always be

A 

Striking

Determined

Beautiful 

Queen

Try and keep up with me

If you can

Maybe ill keep you

If not

Enjoy the insignia

Of my 

Royalty

Im done being 

A shadow

Forgotten, stepped on

Watch me fly

Watch me glow

Trust me when i say you dont know

Who i am

Or what im capable of

But someday you will see

Because im finally learning

How to be 

Me

A queen