You: Before and Now

Before

You

The memories

Your words

I still hear them in my head

I still see you

Like your sitting here beside me

You live rent free in my head

The Memories

They haunt me

Keep me awake at night

I trembly

You

Flashbacks

Places remind me of you

I crave; lone for your touch.

Divine

Bitter-Sweet

Reality

You were a fantasy inside hell

filled with hatered and

only brief seconds, minutes pure bliss

You made my skin crawl

I allowed you to have control

I believed you

Trusted you

You broke that

Instead

Sinful acts, Lies, Games

You

Play

I

Followed your lead

Became What

You

Wanted

You need

I lost myself in you

You

Killed a piece of my soul

took it with you

They pierce through my skin

strike

my bones

I’m shattering like breaking ice

Fragile

Vulnerable

You make me weak

My perception of myself

changed

Looking in the mirror

I see the negative language you spoke

so easily without a care

or second thought

You

never apologized

You never backpedaled it

Now

I am starting to forget your smell

Your words are starting to

fade

They strike

Missing most shots

As time goes on

I don’t feel as if your sitting beside me anymore

Finally

My lungs are filled with oxygen

The mirror is becoming my friend

I dont fear you anymore

You

Dont

Control

Me

Anymore

Finally;

I slayed the demon

You

The memories

Your words

may

still haunt

me

But I have forgotten

I

Im your

Demon

you’ll never

Slay

Maybe now were even? 

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