The hurtful soul

I need you 

I want to talk to you

I’m hurting and all

But I know talking to you won’t heal me from this pain but it will surely lesson it

I surely don’t want to call you and make a fool out of my self

You keep on showing that you are interested you want me but the efforts is low 

I can’t risk the strong barrier I have placed in front of me just for you when you aren’t giving me your all

There is never been a single time that you ever fulfilled your promise 

You always say you will call back but never did you when you finished what you were doing 

You are totally breaking me apart piece by piece and it hurts so deep that it’s unbearable sleeping and waking up each day just dreaming of you is torture 

Cause there is nothing I can do about it

I can’t control my dreams but I can control my actions

I want to stop thinking of you before I sleep but I can’t and it hurts 

Cause I’m not sure you really feel like the way I do

Yess you do kind of show it but itz not enough and itz killing me 

I might soon reach my limit if care is not taken

Cause even an elastic band has a limit when stretched

How much that of a feeble heart which yearns for you each day

It aches ,it hurts 

So badly that just watching you go by your daily life each day kills me

Seeing that you are okay without me 

Makes me know that perhaps I ain’t worth you time and energy 

You have other priorities than me

Perhaps I’m just your plaything when you are bored 

I wish I wouldn’t think this way but there is nothing I can do

You can’t just call me and tell me you expect me to be in love with you

When you don’t know how deeply I am already 

Itz literally just funny 

I always be there in my thoughts do you really mean it 

Should I tell you I already have 

Are you going to think I’m joking or playing you for a fool what at all

I’m helplessly in love with you for no reason 

Perhaps it there was a reason I could literally find another person for that

But no 

Not at all

There is none

Why do I have to suffer for the past mistakes of your ex

Tell me what should I do 

I need commitment cause without it,

Everything is useless 

We basically haven’t even started dating but here I am telling people we are

I even told my mom about it 

But not exactly that I am dating tho

Just told her I might be bring an Ewe man home 😂😂

 Anytime I am on call she keeps on laughing is it the Ewe man and I would be like nah mom

Going to end it here cause I can’t seem to stop just running on a whole lot of emotions here

I yearn for you so badly 

Do you even know how happy I am when ever your name pops up on my screen 

I’m literally the happiest person on earth