VARSITY STRUGGLE

VARSITY STRUGGLE

Chasing for education it’s not easy

You either lose your mental health

Or your education

I haven’t slept in the past 5 days

It ain’t easy because

I want to sleep but I can’t

Education is staring at me

I wake up in the middle of the night

Thinking about the decision

I have to make

Every time I think of quitting

I think of my family

It depends on me to progress to another level

But here am I struggling to even control my mental health

Anxiety, depression took over my life

Don’t even recognize myself

Insomnia has made itself welcomed in my house

Even though I didn’t invite it

Suicidal thoughts be up and down

Running my mind driving me crazy

Everything is due

Tests every fucken day

Slowly losing my mind

Every single day

I even look like a hobo on a daily basis

Because its even hard to take care of myself

Bathing myself seems like a huge task to do everyday

I am a dead walking person now

Don’t even recognize the person

Who was happy coming to varsity

Thinking that finally things were going to change

Little did I know that varsity was hell on earth

A place were I was supposed to get education

Turned to be a place where I got all sorts of mental health issues

Anxiety, depression, insomnia you name them

I don’t know how long I can hold it

Just hope to make it out alive

Of this hell place called VARSITY

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