Denial

I refuse to believe that you’re actually gone, 

But my recent emojis aren’t red roses and hearts anymore 

I no longer sleep and wake up to “good night” and “good morning” texts from you 

I don’t wait for the weekend to come to see you anymore 

And I no longer open my phone to notifications from you. 

But you can’t actually be gone

Because I still talk to you all day long in my head 

I still remember you every time I see the moon 

You’re still the last person I think of every time I go to bed 

And I’d still be with my friends but only want to be with you.