Apologies

Parisab

As I’m stirring the froth of my guilt

Now every-time I swipe 

Sitting in a plush club chair of some country club

”Did you see how the man hit and push

her?”

I look with my eyes closed 

hanging myself with the knots in my stomach

I fight, flight, 

as every passerby freezes

we watch you collapse in the blood of your trauma

I’m making kabob and rice for the boys tonight

with a side of guilty comfort

as I swipe the news of your assault

I’m folding the blankets on our beds made 

from the wool of the slaughtered Persian lambs

I hear the breaking of tissue when I bite

into strawberries

“Look away!”, they say, in my nightmares

no boundary will protect us from the invaders of this cursed land 

When I left, I left you a trail of tears, I migrated with a broken heart and behind me the sting from envy of the other traitors who also wanted to leave with every cost imaginable to us and to you 

Don’t look for me, all I have is regret and judgement about your faith

All I have left you is a trail of tears to remind you that you won’t free yourself of the guilt and shame in no fashion of luxury on this side of borders

 

  • Author: Parisab (Offline Offline)
  • Published: March 31st, 2023 23:14
  • Comment from author about the poem: You never leave the guilt when you leave your invaded country-a letter of apology for my brave sisters in Iran
  • Category: Unclassified
  • Views: 19
  • User favorite of this poem: L. B. Mek.
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Comments5

  • L. B. Mek

    how I relate, dear poet kin
    we Diaspora, survivors
    trailblazers of haunting grief:
    'When I left, I left you a trail of tears, I migrated with a broken heart'

    'we watch you collapse in the blood of your trauma
    I’m making kabob and rice for the boys tonight
    with a side of guilty comfort'

    • Parisab

      Your sentiments and comments mean a lot, dear kin and poet.

    • Neville


      your authors note both confirmed and reinforced the forming of an already birthed impression .. the guilt you allude to is palpable throughout and makes this work of yours something to be correspondingly very proud of .. Neville

    • Parisab

      I feel better that this poem spoke to you about an important tragedy of our time…Your visit is always welcome

    • Thomas W Case

      Stunning. Very powerful. You convey emotion well.

      • Parisab

        Thank you for your attention and care with your comments, always…

        • Thomas W Case

          You are very welcome.

        • Quemis

          Raw, and honest.

          You are strong.

          • Parisab

            Your comment meant a lot-looking forward to visiting your poems.



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