Cry

Staring out into space, looking for emotion

Why do I feel numb, just going through the motions

I’m not happy I know that much

But what is this feeling? I’m trying to touch, 

Grasping at straws but it’s in vain

Biting my tongue so I can hide the pain

What little love I had in the deepest parts

Was diminished when you destroyed my heart

And I can’t even remember the last time I felt

Happy…

 

My chest feels so heavy when you’re near

Is this fight or flight, should I run in fear?

I might smile when you crack a joke but I know

This doesn’t last for long because when you show

Those true colors I meet Mr. Hyde.

He’s mean, ruthless, cutthroat and careless

He’s manipulative, angry, sly, and lacks awareness

When I wake in the morning who am I going to meet?

Why can’t I see him for who he really is?

Why can’t I pull off the sheet?

 

The person I made him out to be doesnt exist.

I’m finding it hard to live here, we can’t coexist

You destroy my vision, you disrupt my peace

I’m praying every night so the pain can cease

But I know I’m not like you, I never will be

I have the scars to prove it, here’s the blood on my sleeve

I know my life’s so much bigger, you see the hope in my eyes

Regret I ever met you, I hate I believed the lies 

Can’t find the emotion, and now the end is nigh,

Just gotta push through, it hurts, and I know I’ll cry.