Star

I see myself from a distance

The wings long gone

But I still long to fly

 

Like a melody of the night

Singing about the endless depth

The star in my chest

Became oh so quiet

 

There is a gash

Where my left eye is supposed to be

And the sensations fade away

Was it nothing more than a dream?

 

I´m hiding my life away

Behind a screen and a pen

Like I was never meant to be

Living in this destructive world

 

There is no hope, no love, no home

Nothing I ever did lead me this way

Was it all predicted?

Can I stay?

 

Is this a mistake I made

Or was it all meant to be

Without any influence from my side

Like my life has already been written before me

 

It´s like an addiction

Like a tumor in my brain

And I know it´s not the path to go

But I am so sick of being strong

 

How can I be so drained?

When I never left this house

It´s all crumbling down once more

Is there no one out there to help me

Just this one single time?

 

A glimmer in the dark

I asked for a spark

Did I not do enough?

How can I have last my spark

If I was always burning so brightly

According to everyone else

 

Was this just to show me

What I will never have?

Just to mock me?