I remember

I remember Love people make

Even if its fake

I remember words people say

Though it makes me gray

I remember promises people make

Especially when they break

I remember pain i feel

But it may not be real

I remember dreams i had

Good and bad

I remember trust i gave

That they put in a grave

I remembered being abandoned

Because I always feel stranded

I remember feeling alone

My true self cant be shown

I remember feeling hurt

My senses are alert

I remember the bad thoughts 

My feelings are in knots

I remember feeling like not enough

My heart ridged and rough

I remember thoughts of suicide

My feelings i hide

I remember imprints people left

The memories i kept

I remember wanting to hurt myself

Afraid to seek help

I remember depression

No help, not even a therapy session

I remember grief

Long since i felt relief

i remember lust

my heart decaying like rust