Untilted

A glimmer of hope

An inferno building up

In the darkest part of my mind

Giving me energy

In a sense, I never felt before

 

And I am afraid

Of blowing it out

Of taking it wrong

 

But I cannot stop

I cannot stop hoping

Hoping for more

For better times

 

It´s just part of my nature

Those daydreams

Those nightmares

All coming from me

 

An familiar ground

An unfamiliar hug

Tears dwelling out

Like an ocean breaking free

 

I am not drowning this time

Just a mess of words

Escaping my dry mouth

As I drink the wine

I never found pleasure in before

 

Don´t you dare leave me now

This time it has to work out

And I refuse to let go

My eyes hurt

But I can´t close them

Not yet

 

So close to the finish line

Still months ahead of me

But it feels so close

Like I predicted last year

This will be mine