How Do You Feel?

  To scream into the darkness

To never be heard

Things that are once heard but never said

I'm the voice in your head

you have no choice I said

hide behind a smile 

only confirms I'm a liar

to go down that lane

where my only answer is agony 

to begin with a mark to start 

Hoping someone would focus 

to notice I'm in vain

But no soul ever recognizes my pain

so I'll make another mark and another

wishing someone just anyone could help me

so I make deeper marks so They'll see

but none acknowledges me

they notice the mark 

but treat it as a broken alarm

to leave it in silence 

They'll look and stare

 But never will the care

as I dip myself in fumes

I lit the lighter

to light one's fire

I'm tired of pretending

as my life is ending

as I'm descending I close my eyes 

to only let out a cry

I promise I'll say good bye