Death Inside Me

A happy day

The time is slow

The sky dark

Enter the day

A single task

Below expectations

Satisfactory

But not good enough

More work to do

The water overfills the cup

One more thing

Failure

The sinking pit in the stomach

Failure

Failure

Failure

The next section of the day

I feel better maybe

One goes smoothly 

The next rageful

Anger at myself

Focus

Focus

Focus

Can I not be better

TRY HARDER

DON'T GIVE UP

My mind won't work

I feel broken

Sorrow

Self-pity

Anger

Not enough

The ride home

The quick walk

I can't function

Hunger

*Fulfilled*

Relaxing never fulfilled

Music helps

I play

I practice

A rare commodity

Soul cleansed

I rest

Emotions still lying there

Eating inside me

Just packed

Condensed

Kept inside

They would all pity

They would all cry

They would all leave

My emotions and me

Tucked inside

Compartmentalized

The emotions lie

Secretive

Inside

Death

The Death that lies inside