Losing someone- before they are gone

Pain, agony, and fear

have never felt so near

each time you cough and shake

I know what's coming

but its just too hard to take

so I cry and cry

and eventually forget what's happening

I wake up and I go through the pain again

I've already lost you many times

it feels so blank 

until I'm snapped back into reality

I know that the time for you to go is close

but I can't accept that you'll be gone

never to hold, touch, smell, speak, anything you once had done

I hope to meet you again

my loved one