Still in the doorway

You give me time then take it away you give me sunshine then you make it rain

I care for you whole heartedly but you’re immune to my pain

you disappear then return with “I miss you” 18 years and still the cycle remains  but because of “love” I stay in these chains

I wouldn’t do that to you but you do it so easily to me

after all this time you still fail to see

the value of my love and the patience required of it just to be

you asked me to lower the bar but it’s practically on the floor giving me breadcrumbs yet annoyed that I continually ask for more

I’m always in between holding on & letting it go but I’ve always lived by this certain motto

“I’m all in or all out”

However only for YOU I’ve stayed in this doorway of doubt

I guess it will end soon anyway

you’ll fall in love again then you will slam the door

disappearing for the last time

as I cry next to it on the floor

until my sadness turns to anger

Then I lock it in a fit of rage

disposing of the key and returning to my cage

until I’m stronger to start another chapter and burn the previous page