Memories

B.E.Poet

We were alone at home

Maybe i should have not been there

We were alone in a room

Maybe i should have gone through the door

We were alone in bed 

Maybe i should have screamed

I was alone naked 

Maybe i could have said something

You were telling me not to say anything

Maybe i should have

We hanged out many times alone

Maybe i should have made up an excuse

You made me your pleasure

Maybe i should have not let you

You made me watch things that haunt me

Maybe i should have turned around

You made me touch myself

Maybe i shouldn't have listened

You filled me with lies and illusions

Maybe i should have been smarter

You made me hate myself

Maybe i should have hated you

You made me cut myself

Maybe i should have hurt you

You made me get in trouble 

Maybe i should have made you go to jail

You made me like girls

Maybe i should have told you that

You made me lie

Maybe i should have never learned to

You made me not trust anyone

Maybe i should have never trusted you

You made me do many things

But what can I say?

It was sexual abuse

  • Author: B.E.Poet (Offline Offline)
  • Published: April 30th, 2023 20:30
  • Category: Unclassified
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  • Users favorite of this poem: L. B. Mek, Abby1234
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  • L. B. Mek

    I laud your bravery and your poetic talent!
    But I can't help, wishing
    Fate could have saved you from the pain
    that yielded such, impactful lines...
    (What can, a man
    a stranger, an object of your logical distrust
    say or convey, to try
    and appease, any of your hurt..
    sadly
    all I can do, is offer these words
    of support, and try to imbue
    a little more kindness in your life..
    stay strong, dear Poet
    anchor your hope on something
    that can never fail, you
    like your sense of self worth!
    curate a life
    that will shine, so iridescent Bright
    your past nightmares
    will be but a shadow of a memory
    to a past, you utilised
    to affirm your worth and path a life
    for other, brave survivors
    to learn from and use as an example
    to heed and follow...!)
    thank you!
    for choosing to share
    and allow others to learn, they
    are not alone, a most priceless
    gift, you offer such a cold
    world

  • B.E.Poet

    thnx i appreciate all your words of encouragement. But i also think that its important that others who have gone through this know that they are not alone.

  • D-P-W

    The evilness of grooming is overwhelmingly apparent .
    Please be strong and remember you was a victim of innocence .

  • Abby1234

    I went through this with my dad and Uncle. I also kinda went through it with my mom. I know how it feels. I should have done something but didn't.

  • B.E.Poet

    thank you for all of your comments & those who also went through something like this i understand but even though I still sometimes feel bad that i didn't say anything I try to remember that it wasnt my fault



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