Games in the Cave

Hello? -O -O -O

it comes echoing back to me 

as I shouted into the dark cave like a bat

it is creeping me out 

I wanted to leave but

the light from the entrance I came 

was shut closed by a boulder

it is pitch black here

I placed my hands in front of me to feel the walls 

so that I could place my back on it 

to guide myself

or just to slide down on the rocks and cry 

or hopefully, I would feel something - a sense of joy

someone that is a living human 

yet what are the odds someone actually made it out of here 

I can hear myself breathing heavily and deeply

I placed my hand on my chest 

how rapidly it rose and fell like the mountains 

I wish my eyes could adjust to my surroundings 

or I could have cat-like vision 

like a black cat 

but I could not adapt at all 

fortunately, my phone was with me 

hey Siri, do you know where I am now 

sorry, the location is undetermined 

that's it, i am losing hope if there was any in the beginning, it would have been negative

I used my flashlight to look around 

I screamed in terror

when I saw dead bodies 

…which were of mine 

some have begun to rot 

I look ghastly in one

it seems I have never managed to get out of here

each time I died here 

I respawn in the same cave

it is a familiar but odd feeling without my past memories 

I hoped to find solace alone as I cuddle myself

yet I truly felt alone - emotionally alone. 

after the people I pushed away, 

no one is going to come to knock on the door anymore

I thought i was smart to take a phone this time 

but all the text messages left unread 

bang

5%...

4%...

3%...

2%...

1%...

0%.

the battery bar was red 

I just looked at it calmly as it is depleting slowly 

like the blood dripping from my forehead down onto my chin

then onto the rocks

this time I would leave my marking behind 

unlike the times I starved to death - emotionally starving 

my chest is still rapidly falling and rising 

shocked that I finally did it

or more from the blood lost

and all the adrenaline

perhaps I deserved this 

I was meant to be unalive

maybe no one would show up at my funeral 

what happens in the afterlife I really wonder 

I hope I don't have to see what happens 

when no one discovers me dead

because no one cares

I am at a loss if this time I can be magically revived again 

or programmed to 

just know that I am so tired of this dark cave