Notice of absence from Abby1234
I won't be on on weekends or in the summer.
I won't be on on weekends or in the summer.
I have anxiety.
I wonder why I am just a fucking achievement.
I taste the defeat at the feet of my demons.
I should put this trigger to my brain and just squeeze it
'Cause Lord, I know I ain't been no saint
But tell me what I did to deserve this pain
Tell me what I did to deserve this hurt
When all I ever did was put everybody first
These days I just don't feel shit.
I wanna sleep and forget that I even existed.
Am I some kind of fake fucked up lost cause.
I'm sorry I'm not that tough.
Sorry that i'm not enough.
All I ever do is make people disappointed.
I am self destructive.
Love watching blood spilling out of my body.
I gotta stop before it's too late.
Can't leave anyone I love behind.
What will they do when I'm gone?
Is death just death?
I don't feel a thing at all, I don't feel like I exist
That's why I need my fix, so I can just feel something
How do you describe the word empty?
Try to describe the word nothing
Wait, fuck that
Use my name as a definition
Write it on my forehead, defective out of commission
I'm sick of it, losing myself, I'm sick of it
The sleeping pills don't work, the healing pills don't work
I still feel pain with pain pills, now those same pills don't work
If I don't get a couple perks, I'm about to go berzerk
Oh, big time, anxiety, yeah
I feel it swimming' through my veins
I'm afraid I might get the blade
Make a slit and let the blood spill out
Anxiety
Oh, big time, anxiety
- Author: Abby Rose Wise (Pseudonym) ( Offline)
- Published: May 3rd, 2023 10:46
- Comment from author about the poem: Just wrote this and put some song lyrics. Also here is the song.
- Category: Sad
- Views: 7
Comments1
I wish you never had to feel this way Abby, it breaks my heart that a beautiful young sweet girl like you has to feel this way,
Things will get better 🙏
I hope so
It will hang in there my girl, I'm here for you anytime you need me
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