I want to go back

i want to go back
back to when i didn't think about death every second
back to when my smile wasn't fake
back to when i had friends
when i laughed and ran around the park full of life
back to when life felt worth living

tell me when they build a time machine 
but not so i can go forwards in time
no i want to go back

back before i started cutting myself
before i started numbing the pain away

so when they build a time machine im not going forward in time im going back