Sorry

B.E.Poet

I feel so lost

I wanna cry

But I can't

I wish I could scream

Let out all my rage 

But I can't

I hold it in 

But 14 years of trauma is a lot 

I'm trynna be cool 'bout it 

But I'm getting desperate

Taking wrong turns

Hurting myself

Bleeding at night

But I don't cry 

I just let the pain flow

I wish I could speak 

But my mouth is paralyzed

My mind whispers & talks what can't be said out loud

It's driving me crazy not to speak

To not express myself

To say that I hate myself

& anyone who abused of me

Who treated me like an object of pleasure

That I can't love anymore

That I'm too afraid to show emotion

I can't stop bleeding

I can't tell you what I'm doing

But my skin shows it

I'm scattered

I find myself lost in the darkest places

Maybe one day I'll escape 

But for now, i'm stuck

For now, I can't anymore

I'm sorry

  • Author: B.E.Poet (Offline Offline)
  • Published: May 3rd, 2023 19:50
  • Category: Unclassified
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  • Abby1234

    I know how it feels to be abused. Been for less years of my life than yours. I have a similar story though. Hang in there and stay strong.

  • B.E.Poet

    thnx

  • L. B. Mek

    'It's driving me crazy not to speak
    To not express myself'
    this is where Poesy's true value
    is actualised, in our everyday
    we lucky few
    have access to a patient heart
    with an infinite legacy of listening
    to our laments and offering us
    a platform to express ourselves
    and transmute our hurt, into art...
    stay strong!
    thanks for sharing, dear poet



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