sick & tierd

i'm so sick&tired of being sick&tired of listening to your lies..

i feel like giving it up,  i am not even sure if  i even recognize how to win you over 

times  invisible hiding  under your sun-rise mingling with October

somehow living this  life backfired-

if i close my eyes to disguise  your lies do you think they'll go away

if i fall into the abyss  of your kiss maybe  i will stay...

should i put down this pen and start again or consider myself retired

i gave you my love and all my emotional distress ,in return for a comforting caress 

and where did it get me honestly..false love was everything you could promise  me

oh boy who cares less than me  its all chess to me

i contradict myself at every turn, pretend  that i'm gifted ,that you were here to learn

as i listened to my verse as i cussed and cursed  reversed   into your  world  to burn,  its my turn

burn baby burn set me  on fire

i approach  personal discovery as precariously as you should  take my  personality   its a little  left field

as my musings drift in and out of view  my obsession  with rhyme grew even if it makes no sense i wear you like shield

just  a tall tale of two lost souls , committing the ultimate crimes

all will be revealed

i'm  so sick of being sick n tired of being  me all the god dame time

are you 

down in the dumps for months and months or sometimes even years,

up on cloud nine whilst  wiping away the tears 

 facing all my fears-  fleeting feet across the ground

i don't feel so tired  as we go head to head wired to sound

 feeling sick of feeling tired sick of feeling ,

feeling sick and tired of feeling sick n tired 

my minds been rewired trained to mimic social norms and nothing dawns on me until its to late ...