Grief

I fall asleep trying to express myself-

Exhaustion from the sadness sinking in.

But, I’m awoken by words I left unspoken,

So I stay whispering hymns to the dead.

I’m paralyzed–like the legs that betrayed you,

My face soggy like your hospital sheets-

From the salt raining down my face-

And when it comes, it won’t stop.

But, holding in sadness twists me in a knot.

So, my shoulders jerk in these quiet hours,

Until the sunrise skies fill my eyes,

But, I’m so unmoved by the moving sky.

For I have seen three women,

Hugging and crying before his coffin,

Bearing the weight of the world,

And nothing again will move me.