His birthday-my internal fight

Yesterday was your birthday

I imagined how you celebrated

Wondered what you received

Thought about who you spent it with

I didn’t reach out

A boxing match broke out between my mind and my heart

You aren’t good for me

I miss you

Back and forth until I couldn’t take it

I love you

I hate you

I want you

I can’t have you

Now maybe you won’t call me on my birthday

I hope you do

I wish you wouldn’t

When will this fight end

Will it ever end

Maybe I’ll spend my birthday with someone new

Or maybe I’ll still be thinking about you