The Abyss

Cold

Black darkness

Every night and day's a struggle

As the pain becomes all-consuming

And the burden weighs heavier than steel

At first the breath comes unsteadily 

While the mind drowns in agony

You long to flee, run away from all

But it pushes you forward with cruelty 

The neverending fear

Nobody's hand helps you up

Once you're lose in this world

Loneliness drips from my eyes

And so the darkness deepens

It seems to settle down, to last forever

The faint far light, a whiff of hope

Real or an illusion?

There it dwells, waiting

So I run after it, be it or no

As hope's hope, real or fake

Shards of happiness 

Drown in the fear

And yet somewhere an exit flickers

In my head, or at the end of the tunnel called life

But finally I let go

Let it pull me into depths dark

Into a bottomless, skyhigh abyss

In which the black shimmers impatiently

Looks forward to my arrival

Keeps me like its child, raising me in the pain

Knowing how I'm trembling, and yet it gives comfort

Nothing else I know now

Softly I swing in the arms of this empty, icy darkness

So beautifully, so easily, I lose myself to it

Despair I take as friend

Melancholy flows through my veins, becomes my blood,

Panic my heart 

And fear my brain