Numb

Why is it that I don't feel anything?

Why do I feel so numb?

People talk bout the saddest things

People around me cry

But I'm immune to that

I don't cry

I don't seem sad

I'm just staring into whatever's close

And I just have a blank expression

The thing is I do feel things

But there is so much going on in my mind

There are a lot of hidden feelings

And that is, in part, what makes me numb

Cus I don't know what to feel

I'm all over the place

And it's frustrating

Cus when I want to cry I just can't

But when I don't, tears just roll down my cheeks

It makes me mad to think that I can't control what I feel

Cus I can't suddenly be vulnerable in front of people

I can't be vulnerable when others require me to be strong

I just can't

But I still prefer to have a blank expression on my face than to show everyone how I truly feel