My life

I know I've been so selfish 

But you dont know my life

I've watch it go up in flames 

And walk around like it's alright

And no one ever gave a damn 

But yet I still hold my head high 

And cry in silent every single night 

I live in a world full of hate and pain 

So my trust and mind went insane 

I can't help who they force me to become 

I try so hard to change my whole outcome 

You can say there is no excuses how I am 

But I've been living my life on a thread

Living in my own world that I created in my head

that's the only place I became comfortable in. 

I try to pull myself out of this darkness 

But I have some traumas that trap me 

And hurtful memories I can't escape from

That I seem to hold on to

And I am not ready to rebuild a whole new chapter

untill I can control a world I don't know I'm waken up to.

I have some insecurities I haven't even dealt  with

I got some more demons I need to put to rest

so when I die my soul can rest.