Letting Go

Sometimes we are born to people who don’t understand us
Left to find our own way and create our own comfort

Talking doesn’t help when people don’t want resolve
What they want is peace and quiet
Nothing to magnify what is really going on here

You can look closely if you want but never say what you actually see
Sweep it under the rug and it’s gone just like that

But it never really goes away
It comes back in different ways
Bubbles up at the worst times

So then have a drink
That quiets things down
For a time

Drink enough and make a fool of yourself
That shame is too much to take
Try to be good for as long as you can
But you never resolved the real issue
So it all becomes too much again

The cycle continues and there’s no resolution
Just moments of trying to be good
Promising to be better

But it never lasts
It’s all the same
We’ve done this loop a thousand times
And act like each time things will be different

How am I still standing by for this
I never signed up for this
I don’t even drink

I’ve been in the splash zone for too long
I’m finally walking to higher ground
What took me so long

Too much is too much

They are them
I am me
We are family
And we’re not that close