A monster inside, so deep within
Bending the body and mind to its relentless whim
Telling me stories unheard of and disguises them as "truth"
About a future destroyed,
Leaving me scared and aloof
The breathless moments it gives me, make me question myself
"I must be at fault, surely" tried to fight, but now I relent
Secretly hoped to be different, as if I could easily contort
But despite my very best efforts, in the end I've come a bit short
The monster doesn't play fair, it pulls and pushes me along
Leaving me no chance to go the distance that I so deeply want
And so it wins every day, an endless race that feels rigged
If only people I meet would know, that things are not as they might seem
When the weight on my chest takes my whole breath away
And when it looks as if I don't have a lot more left to say
I wish they knew how much I struggle and how strongly I want to live
Without this burden on my shoulders
Without the monster on my heels
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Author:
Iris (Pseudonym) (
Offline) - Published: July 16th, 2023 20:51
- Comment from author about the poem: This poem came as an expression of my personal struggle with anxiety. The "monster on my heels" has been around as long as I can remember and has won many battles.. but not the war just yet. :)
- Category: Sad
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Comments1
'The monster doesn't play fair'
no, it definitely does not
using our own weakness' and fears
to bully us into mindsets
and choices, we will soon regret
(such a relatable write, thanks for sharing)
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