My hidden scars

I feel so lost and all alone,
Like I'm wandering through life without a home.
The darkness inside me never fades,
And I'm left feeling broken, like a discarded spade.

I try to put on a brave face,
To make it seem like I'm keeping pace.
But the pain inside me never quits,
And I'm left feeling like I'm not worth a bit.

I want to feel loved, to feel seen,
To feel like I'm part of a team.
But the voices in my head won't let me go,
And I'm left feeling empty, with nothing to show.

I know that others care about me,
That they want to help me be free.
But the darkness inside me is so strong,
And I'm left feeling like I don't belong.

I want to believe that I'm worth something,
That I'm more than just a fleeting thing.
But the pain inside me is so real,
And I'm left feeling like I'm made of steel.

I want to break down, to let it all out,
To scream and shout and never doubt,
That I'm worth something, that I matter,
That I'm not just a broken ladder.

But the darkness inside me is so deep,
And I'm left feeling like I'm just a heap.
Of broken dreams and shattered hopes,
Of endless pain and endless mopes.

I know that I'm not alone,
That others have felt the pain that I've known.
And I'll keep fighting, keep holding on,
Until the light inside me shines like a dawn.

For I know that I'm worth something,
That I'm more than just a fleeting thing.
And I'll keep reaching out, keep trying to connect,
Until the love around me is what I expect.


By C.Philip