A Letter From A Retired Party Girl

my life looked fun on screen

but i was lonely inside 

i found happiness at the bottom of a shot glass

and i found sadness at the bottom of an advil bottle 

i think i found joy in being unknown in a crowded room 

i felt like i could be seen but never understood 

oh how miserable life would be in the day 

because i only lived for friday nights 

now i enjoy reading on monday mornings 

and going downtown at noon instead of midnight 

i am happier now but i am still alone 

but on the inside i am slowly filling with love 

and that is something that cannot be captured on my phone 

thank you for the long nights that became mornings 

thank you for showing me i have lived because i have made mistakes 

and thank you for allowing me to learn to love myself sober in the daylight