So now you care

You could say I never considered you to be special to me

Now you struggle to fit yourself into my life 

Like an unwanted puzzle piece 

It's hilarious to think

That you believed you could show up and I would accept you 

I thought "So now you care"

 

Maybe you've always been there 

But not to be what I expected 

To make me learn and experience fear

To know the taste of my warm and cold tears

To feel what little confidence I had dissappear 

As soon as you opened your mouth and said

You said I should smile at people, so they don't misunderstand 

What a joke, so now you care

 

I cry and clutch my heart when you shout 

I feel my heart ache for my sister becoming like me everyday 

As she can't speak straight and avoids anything in your sight 

You want me to be confident 

You never cared, so why now

 

I got into habit of of looking at the ground 

Especially when you came around 

I wondered how you could sleep happily 

When insomnia came right at me

You asked me to look at you straight in the eye with no baggy eyes

It really is to late to care

 

Why do you think it concerns you

If I'm isolated each day

You took everything away

Now you wonder why I appear so quiet

So unstable and scared 

Now you care 

 

When I tried to leave, you stopped me

Oh, so now you care?