Broken Hearts

I've had many crushes before you

Although I've never felt this strongly about any of them

But this isn't just a crush, is it?

Being in love with someone like you

Is very hard to deal with

Most of the time, when I see your face

I try to only look for a split second

Because that's when I feel all bubbly and excited

If I look for longer, the pain starts to kick in

The pain also tends to get me when I least expect

Just listening to music, and my brain will link the song to my feelings

Or I could simply be thinking about you

And it decides to rear its ugly head

It's been about a month since I realised I was in love

But I was in love with you before then

These feelings will cause my death

If they don't, I will need a long time to heal this broken heart

Broken hearts take a long time to heal

This one? I can only imagine for now

My last one took about 5 months

But I wasn't deeply in love with that guy

Sure we sort of had a thing going

But that heartbreak was also mixed with betrayal

I don't want this love to end

But on the other hand I do

Because when it does, I will be able to move on

And move on with my life

When my heart does burst into dust

I can then pick up the pieces and try to mend it

Mend all the wounds you unknowingly caused me

But that will take a while