The Breaking of Us

You are enough.

Always were enough,

Still are enough,

More…

I- wasn’t.

 

My heart rested,

On shaky foundations,

I counted on you-

To hold me together,

My glue.

 

When you stepped away,

I crumbled, spiraling down,

A void left within me-

So I attempted to fill it,

With anything else.

 

Mistakes.

Alcohol.

Bad decisions.

Nothing filled the hole.

You can’t fit a puzzle piece,

That wasn’t meant to be there.

 

You are partial to blame,

But majority falls on-

My selfish insecurities,

How could I love you,

When I could not love myself?

 

I traveled to rock bottom,

First class ticket,

With a one way stop,

that blade against my wrist,

But I had a layover.

I canceled my flight.

I’m rebuilding now.

My heart and mind,

Undergoing renovations-

Building a foundation,

Worthy of holding your heart.