“The Lie Stood Before Me”

“The Lie Stood Before Me”

I felt this familiar feeling long ago.

Deep within my bones to only describe as pure anguish!

I couldn’t go on as I always would. 

Although I knew what it was,

I still remained hopeful 

~The Lie That Stood Before Me~

Disillusioned my heart and head to a point I barely could imagine

I would learn quick to Pick and choose my battles.

This voice from deep within my soul whispered words to guide me to find solace

Please Remind me of what love means to you?

I myself feel the pain of bringing so many different ideas to keep us as one love 

The surface of my soul reveals an agonizing 

pain deep within my bones

Truthfully speaking, Love has no prejudice

The heart wants what it wants.

I knew I was going to love hard

From the very start

The time went from minutes, to hours, to days, and managing to serve 20 years of life,,

experiences are the only way to live this life and feel the lesson,

Nevertheless, I was very blessed to have you in my path to live my written journey..

Time never is waisted time in my book of life...

The experience that I tasted filled me with enormous amounts of

Pain in my gut.

I only wished that this struggle to let someone love you

would open up the dark side of your soul

Ask your creator to allow the light in

If only you felt the same way as you once did for me

 You know, The love,

The words, and the poetry

that was so beautifully written

I was filled with this open heart, open mind and the openness to smile for the time you gave to me in the things that I only loved

Your drawings naturally drawn from a simple effortless Skitch

Suddenly, I silenced myself for a minute

To hear the hidden agenda all around me

The illusion of what I couldn’t see

I was blinded by what you planned for me

~The Lie Stood Before Me~

Time has come to my end.

Now I stand at a crossroad

I can’t go on any longer

For the love I have for you is so grand 

But I do understand.

Why? The only true answer is,

that all the lessons presented before me

was to begin by accepting the first rule.

The first rule to abide by is...

Everything that happens to you in this life is done  in the Devine timing

Really this is Out of our control.

Yes, to be in control of certain situations will

only cause much intense pain and anguish at deeper levels,

“The Lie That Stood Before Me”

I forgive you for all the times I answered your questions truthfully...

Just to get your negative feedback of what your mind made up of me...

Undoubtedly, the only action that I received time and time again was the aggressive, forceful, and insults I never deserved from a person whom I thought loved me and my heart

Instead I received this horrible memory of the bullies that created a living nightmare in my everyday Life

Why?

Because you are one to believe what your mind says.

The turmoil was so wrongfully committed 

The inflictions seemed to have been the only thing you knew how to give, 

The one thing that was taught was this energy of low vibrations

My destination will be a place of love, peace, and the wisdom to keep being who I was meant to be

Remember the night we met under a beautiful full moon

Soon I would discover that you failed to speak of truth

The false hope

The false promises

The Mind games

I am nothing of what you thought

I know who, where, what and how my life will be 

” The Lie That Stood Before Me”

Will come to this false foundation and unknowingly create the tower to come crashing down

I remain true, grounded, and humble

I will not stumble nor fumble in the presence of you no longer The best part to me is every single minute was an adventure

The fire I carry within me will forever light my way to greater strength and courage to live 

I never changed

I felt some days strange

To stare at,

“The Lie That Stood Before Me”

I felt a familiar feeling

To only remind me of

~The Lie That Stood Before Me~

 

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