Who Am I?

I can't feel pain
I can't cry
I can't be me
I can't say no to you
I'm supposed to be perfect
Smart but stupid
Obedient but diminished
So what am I?
Who am I?
Am I someone whose life is dictated by another person who seeks redemption through my life & actions to cure their traumas & bad decisions?
Am I someone who is being manipulated every step of the way because I can't say no?
Am I someone who is being guilt-trapped & held responsible when things go wrong even though the person dictating me is at fault & yet left unscathed?
Who the hell am I?!
It's sad but I don't know