Try

I tried and I tried i really tried but yet I knew it wasnt enough 

It never was

No matter how much you say it is 

It's not 

It dosent feel enough 

I know deep within I can try harder 

But it feels like their is a barrier 

Barrier stopping me to going over to the castle i bulid

So I try and try and fucking try 

So much so it would better if I die

I try so hard to climb up but I keep falling like the leaves in autumn, the raindrops in monsoon and like the teardrops which are falling from my eyes

"It's better to leave" you say

"I can't. Its mine to climb" I say 

So I try and try and fucking Try

Until I climb all the way up 

Just for the castle to erupt 

And i just stand and see it do so and yet I can't do enough 

never can 

Definitely not now 

"I can't do anything" I say 

You look at me like a puppy who lost its way 

"It's just one question, don't let it determine your worth" you say 

I just nod and look away...