Shock

Miss_Dreamer

I think I'm still in shock

It's been years

And I am still in shock

 

I want to feel my anger and sadness all the way to my bones 

I want to hurl insults at him until he realizes how much he hurt me 

I want to cry rivers made of tears for the little girl who had to grow up too fast

 

And I can't 

 

I'm unable to move on from that experience 

My hands still shake, my heart still pounds, and my breath still stops whenever I think of him 

That scared, deeply ashamed girl is frozen in time 

 

I think it's why he still holds so much power over me 

Because rationally I know it's been years 

But I am still in shock

  • Author: Dreamer (Pseudonym) (Offline Offline)
  • Published: October 19th, 2023 10:32
  • Comment from author about the poem: Having ptsd can feel debilitating, like you're still that person from all those years ago, like that thing is happening over and over and over again to you now. For me, there's a certain detachment I feel towards myself and my feelings. The closest thing I can describe it as, is it's like you're still in shock. Hence this poem
  • Category: Reflection
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Comments1

  • Thomas W Case

    Powerful poem. I'm sorry for your pain.

    • Miss_Dreamer

      Thank you, I really appreciate that



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