I think I'm still in shock
It's been years
And I am still in shock
I want to feel my anger and sadness all the way to my bones
I want to hurl insults at him until he realizes how much he hurt me
I want to cry rivers made of tears for the little girl who had to grow up too fast
And I can't
I'm unable to move on from that experience
My hands still shake, my heart still pounds, and my breath still stops whenever I think of him
That scared, deeply ashamed girl is frozen in time
I think it's why he still holds so much power over me
Because rationally I know it's been years
But I am still in shock
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Author:
Dreamer (Pseudonym) (
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- Comment from author about the poem: Having ptsd can feel debilitating, like you're still that person from all those years ago, like that thing is happening over and over and over again to you now. For me, there's a certain detachment I feel towards myself and my feelings. The closest thing I can describe it as, is it's like you're still in shock. Hence this poem
- Category: Reflection
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Comments1
Powerful poem. I'm sorry for your pain.
Thank you, I really appreciate that
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