Living in a world of chaos

Growing up in a world of chaos 
When everything seemed to be normal
 In this unrealistic world 
Where there were so many secrets
 That was not allowed to be spoken
 There was no real love 
It was a game of pretend
 Where there were no lessons being taught
 Just a lot of secrets kept 
All being locked behind closed doors 
Where nobody knew where to find the key
 Living in this world
Where there were no true emotions
 Nothing expressed or spoken 
After many years of living in this abuse
 Brought growth and awareness 
That I didn’t have to be trapped 
In this unrealistic world
 Fleeing this world 
It was not an easy journey
Climbing up this mountain of growth
 Brought up a lot of emotions
 That was all unfamiliar
 Within time the emotions  that were being felt
 Did not feel so strange
They were feelings that I never knew
 I had to learn on my own 
Away from the chaotic world 
That I found out to be toxic 
For me and the ones I love 
I had to shatter that world of chaos 
It was not a healthy place 
It kept me trapped
In a world that I did not belong
 As I climbed up the mountain
 The emotions grew bigger within
 I had to fight against
 The familiar world that I had always known 
Knowing that I had to escape
 For my own sanity 
It brought me nothing but misery 
Now I know that I am able to protect
 The ones I love 
Now I have found my strength 
To grow into the person
 I was supposed to be 
Living in that world of chaos 
Was the worst place for anyone to live 
Now I Know that I don’t want to be 
In that place again 
I am now safe in a world 
That does not have to have chaos 
Knowing that I’m free 
 Makes me feel a lot stronger