Conflicted

A revelation came to me

About God and his love

But it made things complicated

And pushed me to rebel above

I spoke with a psychiatrist

But nothing came of that talk

I turned to a minister

But his words just made me balk

He said I didn't attend church

As often as I should

Blaming this for my troubles

But I couldn't believe it could

For when I was leaving high school

A revelation came to me

About God's vengeful nature

And I couldn't agree

If God was truly loving

Could he also be vengeful too?

It didn't make sense to me

And so I rebelled and withdrew

I couldn't comprehend it

So I stayed far from the pews

And that's why I rarely attended

A decision I didn't easily choose

So I stand here now, conflicted

Between God's love and his wrath

Seeking the truth within me

As I walk a different path. ("Conflicted") by Courtney Weaver Jr.