Conflicted

A revelation came to me

 

About God and his love

 

But it made things complicated

 

And pushed me to rebel above

 

I spoke with a psychiatrist

 

But nothing came of that talk

 

I turned to a minister

 

But his words just made me balk

 

He said I didn't attend church

 

As often as I should

 

Blaming this for my troubles

 

But I couldn't believe it could

 

For when I was leaving high school

 

A revelation came to me

 

About God's vengeful nature

 

And I couldn't agree

 

If God was truly loving

 

Could he also be vengeful too?

 

It didn't make sense to me

 

And so I rebelled and withdrew

 

I couldn't comprehend it

 

So I stayed far from the pews

 

And that's why I rarely attended

 

A decision I didn't easily choose

 

So I stand here now, conflicted

 

Between God's love and his wrath

 

Seeking the truth within me

 

As I walk a different path. ("Conflicted") by Courtney Weaver Jr.